Last week, my younger son graduated from high school.
It was everything it was meant to be—joyful, proud, celebratory. There were smiles, photographs, hugs, and that quiet glow that comes from watching your child reach a milestone you once held their hand through.
And yet, somewhere beneath all that happiness, there was another feeling. Softer. Quieter. Almost like a whisper I couldn’t quite ignore.
Because amidst the excitement of dressing up for the big day and celebrating all that he has achieved, I found myself gently saying goodbye—not just to his school years, but to a version of myself.
The stay-at-home mum.
The one whose days, years, and identity were built around her children.
“Come on, you should be happy. Just look at them—you’ve raised them so well.”
Words said with love. Words I’ve said to other mums too. Words we offer each other like comfort… while quietly holding a bandage over our own hearts.
Because the truth is, those words don’t fully honour what this moment holds.
They don’t quite capture the years we’ve poured in.
The invisible labour.
The endless giving.
The life we built around these little humans who now stand tall, confident, and ready to leave.
The last 15 years have flown by.
School runs. Lunchboxes. Rushing back to school because something was forgotten—or because the nurse called. Mondays was soup and rice, Thursdays – spaghetti bolognaise! The weekly meal chart seldom changed. Stars for finishing lunch, coins in lieu of stars at the end of the month. Toys R Us, parks, beaches, indoor play areas, nothing left to explore. White ‘sagan’ envelopes at the start of every school year, with a little note tucked inside: You are a big boy now. Do your very best this year.
Year after year.
Primary school graduations. The excitement of “big school,” “new class!” After-school activities. Some they would run to, some needed cajoling. Waiting for them. To become artists, chefs, mathematical geniuses. Sometimes in the open hot sun, sometimes in a nice coffee place. Finishing errands in between. Sitiing by their side when they were unwell. Friday nights with pizza, movies, and the sofa bed pulled out so we could all pile in together.
Saturday football. Sunday rugby. Week after week, year after year.
And now… silence where that rhythm once lived.
I often wonder—why do mums have to be strong all the time? Or at least appear that way?
Why can’t we crumble a little?
Why can’t we sit together and say, “This hurts”?
Why can’t we hold space for each other—not just in pride, but in grief too?
Because this is a kind of grief.
A beautiful one, yes. One wrapped in pride and gratitude. But still a letting go. Still an ache.
Sometimes I think—there should be a graduation ceremony for mums too.
A moment where someone calls our names.
Where we walk across a stage, not in heels we chose for the occasion, but in the invisible strength we’ve carried for years.
A medal pinned to our chest:
For the decades of service.
For the love that asked for nothing in return.
For the nights we stayed awake.
For the years we showed up, again and again.
For raising humans who are ready to fly.
Maybe that would give us some closure.
Maybe it would honour the quiet “open heart surgery” this season can feel like.
Because yes—I know I’ve raised them to be independent.
I know this is what we’ve been working toward all along.
But it still… hurts.
And I think it’s okay to say that.
So this is for all the mums standing in this in-between space—
Proud, grateful, and quietly aching.
You are not alone.
Maybe it’s time we stop hiding behind brave smiles and start sharing these truths with each other.
Maybe it’s time we celebrate—not just our children’s milestones, but our own.
Together.
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